...and I can see clearly nowy

I wish I knew then what I know now. That statement is the only way to describe the idiot goggles I've been wearing. I'm smarter then the life I've been leading and that's what hurts the most.my life up to this point has been to sum it up a blind attempt to portray myself as some one that has it together. at my job in my circle of friends in my family I'm it. I work take care of my kids but not to the standards that I want. I guess theres no sense to be the queen of the ant hill. I'm going achieve my dream and january 22 I give it my all. I'm scared what if I don't have it In me what if this is it? No way this can't be life theres got to be more

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.....and I woke up.

It was so freaking hot . I'm standing up front the same place I've stood for eight years . I'm packing bags barking orders handing out the window. Same as always a million things at once. "Rainbow brite" calls a hand wash and at that moment i felt like I was stepping out of bed. I woke up. In the middle of lunch rush while the walking zombies hound me for coffee and the large value meal small diet orders are being punched into the register I woke up. That's so me my timing is always off.
The nightmare I'm living is right before my eyes on front counter. I'm 26 and flipping burgers living pay check to pay check I hate my house don't have a car have two kids I want so much for it was like a snow ball to the face. I can do better I know it....I have no choice and you know what they say knowing is half the battle. So I threw a plan in play go to school and do something that pays good instantly. Yesterday I told my boss Jan 31st is my last day.

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